Pain Fuck Off

hi?

I feel so weak and upset but no one notices so I keep pushing when I want to give up

Not even 3 days into the cancelation and I feel like I'm suffocating, it sucks. I've lost so many friends over the past month, my birthday has been canceled and I don't have anyone to turn to anymore... the only way I could of been freed of  all my pain and suffering was taken since my dad likes to go through my phone when he wants...

I know I basically never say anything on here but I'm sick and tired of it, I'm tired of trying.. I've lost so many people in the last year and I haven't had time to rant or anything about it, I can no longer message people of my personal life because of my dad who likes to go through all my messages and get offended by what I type but that's besides the point.. I'm done with trying anymore, my username is more true than you think... so is my other user that I use (ImNotCute) because it's true... 

@phantomlove302 kay

Go follow me and my friends account! @SufferingBoiOverHere 

I need a break from life.... my grandfather passed away 30 minutes from now...

You know.... I love it when I'm ignored wanna know why? It's so then I can try to get your attention but I know I'm not something important... like what my ex once had said "your one bitch that no one will every love or remember" and sometimes I feel like their right....

I'm tired of being depressed all the time... nothing helps anymore since I've grown immune to it by now.... I wish people would think that my life is important too but its least likely from what I've seen... so I'll disappear if that's what you guys want...

Some people cant handle that you rp rape them with irl characters and others can I'm not one of them unless you talk to me first and we can skip it but that's beside the point, pretending to be suicidal when your talking to a person who is diagnosed with depression isnt a good combination since I've tried to overdose and I've stabbed my self in the foot before but what I've recently done was burn my self. So when it was done being irritated I took a picture of it and sent it to the dude only for him to act like a child and block me on discord and wattpad so when I was talking to his friend and explaining everything I brought up the stuff I have done to my self and he blocked me so some people can handle real world problems and some cant. I act like I'm fine and shit when in reality I'm suffering and there's nothing I can do since its not my fault that I was bullied or physically abused by my uncle, but its my fault that I have gotten this bad.