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I was just reading "I see you my love" and was wondering if their will be more?

Like at all, I love my mom. So much. Yes, I know in the past I talked about how my family is to me. I mean the environment has been the same. Kinda but lots of shits have happened since I have been away? Like a lot. I still don't have a job, so I applied to Yoshinoya, but yeah anyway.
          
          I have been trying to dress masculine. Sort of but a soft masc. Idk if that's what you call it, cause I have many tastes, and I fell in love with all kinds. You can literally find me on Pinterest and see my savings. And all kinds. (My previous one didn't let me in with my new phone for some reason."
          
          But yeah you can see it in there. That's all I can say. Peace!

Lmao I even let myself go loose, since I have hair. Any girls have hair. Don't come at me with that "ew, why are you talking about hair?" Or that "Why are you bringing up girls having hair? Girls shouldn't have hair." EH, so fucking what girls have hairs or don't? Any girl is beautiful and just angelic to me. Perfectionist. A piece of art to me! But anyway, I have been letting my hair grow. I noticed I kinda have a sort of happy trail? But it's not much but a little bit? But my mom noticed I have hair in my pits. Okay, she noticed, asked me, "When was the last time you shaved?"
          
          Look, she doesn't know I'm gay! Okay? She doesn't, I have been keeping secrets and making sure I don't make it obvious. Besides, my tomboy behavior is caused by the fact that I used to be a tomboy. Mi madre has She-Hulk muscles. Acts like Wonder Woman. But the point is that she pointed out my hairy pits, and I just told her a sort of lie, "Oh, I'm just tired of shaving, and I don't wanna do it anymore." Tbh it is very tiring to shave all the time ngl. But she said this to me in a harsh and hurtful way, but didn't think it was hurtful at all to her. "I hope you're not gonna be like your cousin, like how she grew her hair on her armpit. Or be like one of those girls having hair grow." Like you that shit made me feel like a brick was thrown at me. Cause tbh she has been giving me too girly clothes. And I don't want to hurt her feelings.

Since you all know that I had, or I don't think I have, come out. But this year has been my first to celebrate Pride Month as a lesbian. A few months ago, I realized that I was into girls only, but I liked men too much. Which is a fictional men-only. Since Idk if it's very valid for all the gay girls that you have crushes on male fictions but never men in real life, like you don't see yourself being with them, you're trying to be with one, or the fact that you don't see a future with me in the real world. Yes, I can say men are attractive since I am very honest about it, but they are not my type. 
          
          (I have been sheltered too long to find myself who I am)
          
          But this is the thing. I like boys' clothes. As long as it's dark and grunge, yk? Btw, I have noticed all my life that I may wear makeup and try hard to dress up girly. But I get that feeling deep inside I get uncomfortable. I may not show it and it's fine to me. But I ignore the feeling that I don't like showing myself like that to be feminine. Sure, I still like girls' stuff, but not too much. And I always do, lol man spread, I sit like any boy would do. I never liked my nails long cause they're just in a way for me. And I always do hard work. (Even if I am emotionally burnt to do any shits I used to do. Like saying just being "lazy") 

Hello, I would like to know when the new episodes of Green Lantern Animated Series: Dark Desires +18 will be updated.

I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!  I'M SO HAPPY I JUST ASKED HER OUT TODAY! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAÀAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Okay, I just have to say something since I haven't told my ex. Who I have been friends with that I always mentioned a lot of times. Ya know my struggles with him. I don't see him the same way or feel anymore. Cause now I realize this whole time that I liked the idea of being with a man. Cause ya know, admiring. A stage of comphet. That I have learned. And I don't see myself being with other men besides him. Cause he is perfect if anyone feels something for me. I'll return their feelings. Like give it a try, and it lasted a month or a year. And those were two guys. As you all know.
          
          But what I am trying to say...I'm a lesbian. I had been confused about my feelings for so many years and I noticed my feelings, how I felt with men. Like they are attractive, but I don't feel something for them. As messed up as that sounds. But with women....it's stronger. Like I thought I did with men. But I guess I lied to myself? To fit the society? Normalized? And I went through stages back and forth like pansexual and bisexual. Probably omnisexual? But if it was only girls. Ya know? So it's why I have been gone because I want to learn about myself more still. I may be 23 now. But it's the fact that I am trying to learn myself that I never did. Never got to, even if it was so little. And I met a girl. She is perfect, almost a month since we met. Just almost. And I looked forward to it.

Hi

Guys I am rethinking about men. I may still like them but I am rethinking them. Cause something happened. There was a guy, who is 24, not gonna spill out his name but he works for Spectrum about cables and shit. But he was nice and I liked that about him. Saw my cats coming around when I came out of the house going all crazy. Asked me if there were neighbors of mine in the back. I said yes but they aren't home. Asked if my dad does the work of paying bills and shit. It was a nice conversation I had with anyone ever since I graduated. He was sweaty and everything. Until he crossed a line about how he likes me and I looked pretty and commented about my body being thick. He asked if he could touch my ass. I felt him hugged me and his hand so close to my ass. And asked for my time when he is supposed to be idk working? Sure I didn't mind talking to any workers and having small conversations....but that's what he did and asked....just pushed me off limits. My fucking God....

Spoilers y'all if you guys haven't watched the show Arcane Act 3.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Oh my God, you guys. Can you believe it? Arcane is finally over. I have watched it since 12 and the three other episodes dropped. The last Act of Arcane, and it has been a journey to watch it. (Of course about Caitvi Sesbian Lex officially cannon) But...I will be crying over it. It's finally over. It was beautiful, so wrenching, heartbreaking, artistic, anxiously exhausting, amazing. I think this show has forever broken me. I am definitely rewriting my Secret and Lies book. The actors, writers and producers weren't kidding that Act 3, we all aren't going to survive. I for sure died....but as all of you guys who watched it. Might have if you live in a different country with the time dropping the episode. Guys...it has been a journey. But make sure the Arcane Fandom....never dies. And our love for this masterpiece that has finally ended. Love you all.