Why cant life just be good for one day. One day. That's all I want, I just want a day where my parents love me and my sister doesn't annoy me, where I'm not suffering from depression and anxiety, where I dont think about what it would be like if I just died, if I didnt question why I was born. Where I want to be here, where I dont worry about going to hell just for liking women, where Im not the therapist friend and trying to help everyone else while I'm just slowly breaking down, where I don't miss people, where I don't just. Feel like not being here. I just want a day where I don't feel like disappearing. No I'm not going to attempt again, I just want to be happy, I just want someone to care about how I feel and don't say Im doing too much or that Im exaggerating it. I know I know it feels like I am to myself too, but it also feels like no matter what I do, nothing never changes, nothing gets better.