Sumire_akane

I really need to check my spelling specially when I'm sleepy ‍

Sumire_akane

Lol, I'm back and uhh I got a gf but we broke up after like 18 days and we ended on bad terms and I wish things ended differently but I realized now that she'll probably never even actually love me since it seems she'd prefer someone who hurt her and idk if she's obsessed with the idea of character but I'm relieved that I'm not inlove or breaking myself for someone every time and now that I look back, I think I was inlove but love the feeling of being inlove like I do love my partner more but it's more that I'm clinging on to love instead of the person, I'm assuming the reason I'm doing this, is to find someone who will make me feel like how my best friend made me feel anyways, things are somewhat better and I came back bc uhhh well wattpad just hits different with fan fics for me ‍ I just hope that things will get better for me and that I forgot about my ex since it was toxic and I'm pretty sure she hates me with her guts.

Sumire_akane

Ngl, I deleted wattpad and decided to stop reading fan fics because it was messing up my brain and other things. Looking back on my old post, I cringe a bit, but i'm glad i was able to share smth that happened to me online (praying no one from ik in real life finds this) at least a few new things have actually happened that made me happy, I've adopted a child (not really but iykyk) but uhhhh so now ig I was right that we would break up but I'm still friends with him and I do like his company at times anyways ima probably delete wattpad again bc I don't think I should go back to this over and over again as a way to cope with everything, tbh idk what else to say, I want to say more but like I don't want my actually friends to find this cuz then uhh I don't want to be outcasted anyways I hope I can meet someone else who will treat me the way I want to be loved (idk but after the break up with my new ex) I just wish to forget anyways cyaaaaa O(≧∇≦)O

Sumire_akane

Tbh... March and April have been the worst months for me... My friend had to leave, and things happened on the weekend, and I had to call my friends...I don't think I'm happy anymore...in all honesty...I don't think I'll get help...and I don't know how much longer i can keep this up and the reason I was smiling was because my 2 friends (rp/role play) my moms and also my other friend...who was my grandpa (rp) and they made me smile...at least I have my husband with me...I guess but I don't think he'll understand or love me how I love him...I'll probably delete this later bc I can't have my rl friends to found it about this...anyways goodbye and have nice life ★●★

Sumire_akane

Hi, I'm back um..sorry I don't really know what to say, unfortunately, but things have been getting better, at least I thought it was...but now I'm not so sure but everything and how I should feel anymore...I'm just tired, sometimes I miss the person I was before...the sad part is that you won't find the same person twice...they'll change and so will you eventually...well I just wanted to say I'm back but probably I won't be online that much because of other stuff or things, hope yall have a great day or night ★