Why does my life have to be such a series of train wreaks, my life is so screwed up, i fell for someone out of age, and i can't go back, it started out as just a friendship, then turned to something else, i feel like a perverted bastard, and i hurt inside, and my feelings won't go away, no matter how hard i try, they just get stronger, please i need someone to tell me what to do, other than my family