I feel like I owe some of you an explanation. I did something very stupid that I can't take back now. As you have probably figured out, I deleted Ride or Die. It seemed like a great idea at the time, but now I really regret it.
I don't really talk about it a lot because it's my own thing to deal with, but I go through random periods of sadness and self doubt. I don't really want to call it depression because depression is a real thing. Not to say that what I feel isn't real, but it's not the same thing. I think true depression is a lot more deep and crushing than what I experience, so I won't call it that.
Anyway, I'm kind of sensitive about my writing. I want to make a career out of it someday, but I often find myself questioning if I have what it takes, if I have enough skill and experience to make it happen for myself, or if I will ever be able to reach my goals as a writer. I get all of these great ideas, and then I start a story, but eventually I end up hitting a wall because I didn't plan things out well enough. That's exactly what happened with Ride or Die. I just felt like it was going to be really hard to continue, even though I really wanted to, because I didn't know where I wanted it to go. I get really bad writers block, so that's why it takes me so long to update sometimes.
I'm probably rambling, so I'll just kind of sum everything up. I was going through one of my weird little funks, and I couldn't for the life of me write anything. I kept seeing comments asking when I was updating and why it was taking so long, which is fine. I'm not putting he blame on anyone or saying I deleted it because I was tired of the pressure.
