SunflowerDaze00

My dad is in the living room blasting worship music. While I sit in my room reading people call out for god for very different reasons.

SunflowerDaze00

Small town things but also tea
          
          
          So new years day my boyfriend and I meet up with my ex and his girlfriend, because they have gifts for boyfriend and I. He's friends with my ex and my ex's girlfriend is who I'd consider my best friend just normal small town things. My friend and I decided we're gonna make plans to hangout.
          
          Flash forward to yesterday we're hanging out chat about anything and everything cause it's been a while since we caught up. She tells me her and my ex haven't been together for over a year, he's living at her parents house, paying her rent, and kinda just refusing to leave. There is so much more, but overall I feel vindicated in my feelings and love that she got out of that and is working on the rest.

SunflowerDaze00

I'm about to revive my dead account because I need to share this information with literally anyone and not really anyone I know would find it funny like me.
          
          So long story short some stuffs going on at my bank making me look at my account more than usual. Then I remembered I had an old savings account that neither I nor my parents opened, it was this older guy that was a friend of my parents. He made this account for me and would put money on it just for me. (Set it up that my dad didn't have access to it only my mom and me) On top of the fact that he would give me money anytime I helped him when we would take him to his doctors appointments. 
          
          So basically I had a platonic sugar daddy at 12
          
          (He was a really nice guy and was a blind veteran. It kinda sounds sketch but it was all good)

SunflowerDaze00

Trying to sleep but can so random thoughts go through my head of course. I drove up to stay with the boyfriend for a few days over Halloween. I met some of his friends it was over all a great time. For Halloween I didn't have a costume so his friends suggested I dress up as him. We were getting dressed to hangout and drink, and he was looking for one of his shirts for me to wear. He turned to me and said he didn't think I would be comfortable wearing one of his medium ones, knowing I like to wear really baggy clothes because of body issues. It's a small thing but it means a lot.

SunflowerDaze00

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I am so fucking mentally drained from having the same arguement over and over, trying to make my dad see I'M A FUCKING ADULT!! I want to drive 4 hours away to visit the boyfriend, and my dad is pissed I won't let him take me on that trip so I will know the road before hand. I just want independence and a chance to do things on my own, not have someone hold my hand the whole time. I'm 20 for fuck sake, and I can't even leave home without someone in my family right there with me.