Is anyone awake? I can't stop crying, y'all. I was at college night tonight with my highschool, right? Some of my dance peers were there as well, like people who go to the same dance studio as me and such. And it's cool if they don't like me or whatever, but for some reason, my momma got really mad because when I said "hi," to Dragon Fruit[I'm not using her real name], she didn't say hi back. Like not even a fake one. I'm fine with that, she can not like me all she wants, but my momma just reminded me of the things I don't like about myself so that's why people don't like me, right?, totally understandable, i get it. But somedays, the universe makes me hate myself, and I can't get past it. And why does my momma care so much, when, I don't. She unintentionally upset me and continued to do so after I told her to leave me alone. I just want to not like myself in silence y'all, is that too much to ask?