Sunnieros3

GANG I GOTTA REWRITE MY DAD’S BOSS ITS SO CRINGY WHO LET ME POST THAT!?!?

DISCORD HATES ME

Hey! Happy bday right?

OMG ur Bob the titan thing in the all abt me reminds me of the trauma we love Bob ❤️

Heyy! Just wondering when your birthday is (if you're comfortable sharing)? I'm collecting them :))! (Also i scrolled through ur posts and saw ur rants and ik it was a while ago and tbh you probs don't even remember me but i'm here if you ever need to talk <3333 hope you're doing better <3333)

…wtf is happening?
          
          What Are We? was just deleted because it had ‘explicit content’
          
          …?
          
          Mind you, only that book got deleted
          
          It’s not even in my drafts it’s just GONE

GUYS I’M REPUBLISHING WHAT ARE WE ON VALENTINES DAY
          
          I’m thinking I change my update schedule to one update a week
          
          Meaning, one week will be The Secret We Swore
          
          And the next will be What Are We?

This one is not a rant, but an actual update <3
          
          So basically, I've decided to edit What Are We? to both make more sense and be a better read.
          
          I'm gonna try to have at least the first chapter published soon, probably not next week but I'll try.
          
          So anyone who like really liked the book and wanted to read it but I drafted it, you'll get to read a better version soon lol

Life update (TW: sh and suicide): Part 3
          
          Not to mention, my ex (we’re still good friends, ended on good terms) wants to get back together but they’re the one who broke it off (on my mom’s birthday after the passing, when I was having a pretty good night and listening to one of my favorite songs) and they’re kinda acting like nothing’s really changed and I don’t like that because pretty much everything changed and my cousin says not to trust them but they’re my first real rls and I still really like them just not in the same way as I used to
          
          And I don’t know what to do and I think I’m having a panic attack just thinking about all of this and I’m trying not to cry because I fucking hate crying and I’ve done way too much of it today, and all I want to do is see them again because they meant the world to me and I never got to tell them that and I regret it every day 
          
          But the only way I’d get to see them again is if I killed myself and I made a stupid promise not to and even if I hadn’t I’m a fucking coward and I can’t leave my cousin alone because without me she’d have no one and she would probably follow me and I can’t let her do that
          
          She’s just a kid
          
          …so anyway, yeah
          
          That’s how life’s going for me :,]
          
          Three parts, dam
          
          Uhh anyway thx for reading if you did, umm
          
          Yeah that’s it ig
          
          Bye-bye

Life update (TW: sh and suicide): Part 2
          
          And I have shit to do this weekend but I can’t get anything done if I’m just rotting away in bed but that’s all I feel like doing
          
          Like the thought of getting up in the morning, getting on the bus, and being at school for 7-8 hours makes me want to bawl my eyes out and throw up
          
          Repeatedly
          
          And I feel like such shit, because ppl are relying on me to do shit this weekend and to be the one they can vent to and the one who’s always okay
          
          And my mom doesn’t understand even if she says she does but she really fucking doesn’t because she’s not hurting herself, she’s not starving herself or isolating herself and she’s just doesn’t get it no matter how much she tries
          
          And I love her for trying
          
          But I’m not fucking okay and it’s killing me
          
          And I can’t really talk to anyone about it irl because no one knows I cut, and if they did they’d start treating me differently and that’s something I’d rather die than endure