Josh isn't real

Ava u there?

Ava is an intelligent, beautiful 12yr old girl. Ava took dance for 6yrs. Ava was always quick to pose and smile for a picture. She has an enormous heart and would do anything for anyone, especially friends and family.
          When Ava became depressed, she quit doing what she loved most in the world, dance. She began to isolate herself from friends and family. Ava started cutting herself. She has deep scars on her arms. Ava also tried to overdose on Tylenol. Overdosing on Tylenol would be a very slow and painful death. Suicide is not funny. Suicide is not a joke. It is not something to joke about or take lightly. For those of you who have suicide as part of your screen name, you should be ashamed of yourselves. Those who have truly attempted suicide, DO NOT BRAG about it. They are not proud of what they have done. They do not joke about it. It is a deep regret they carry with them every second of everyday. For those of you that pleaded with Ava not to hurt herself, I applaud you and thank you deeply from the bottom of my heart. There are many forms of self harm besides physical. Speaking negative is worse than being hit or cut. Bruises and scars fade but things that are said haunt you for eternity.12yrs old is WAY to young to be obsessed with sex. BDSM, BDLB...etc.PORN IS NOT REAL! Those people are actors, like in any movie they get paid to act. If at anytime, any of you need someone to talk to please do not hesitate to shoot me an email at beaverad gmail.com. I am listening to you. I am Ava's mom. Ava has a 4yr old sister.
          Ava is my daughter. I will do ANYTHING in this world to protect and help my Ava. She is a light in my life. I apologize on behalf of Ava for any of you that she misled. Ava is not well, and right now is getting the help she needs.                                                                            REMEMBER, IF AT ANYTIME ANY OF YOU NEED TO TALK, BITCH, CRY....I AM HERE. I AM LISTENING. I CARE. I HEAR YOU. I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE WANTED. YOU ARE LOVED.

Alrighty no one is gonna look at this but I honestly don't care. I'm seeing the people I follow talking about how they cut and wanna kill themselves and I understand what they are coming from. But they need to try to overcome it. I'm not saying it's gonna go away. A lot of wattpad users are still in there teens. You're gonna take your life away before it's even started? I know that after a little while. You just wanna give up, You're tired of trying. I understand you. I have tried to kill myself and I have cut so many times. But try to find the purpose and hold on to it. Never let it go. And if they let YOU go then they were not your purpose. I have no clue what is going on in your life, and I'm sorry that it is hurting you. What you're going through is temporary. Suicide is permanent. Never forget that. I don't know how hard your battle is. But are you gonna end it half way through? You never know, You could win that battle. It will take a while. Days, weeks , months, years. But you can win. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. And if they do, forget about them. Cause during this part of your life you need people who will bring you  up, not drag you down.  
          
          Thank you. I will talk if you need it. Love you guys

Sometimes I wonder, that if I went back in time and I could redo my whole life. What would I change?
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Everything.

Dear bullies,
          
          That boy you made fun of in class today? He commited suicide a few moments ago.
          
          That girl you called dumb? She has dyslexia.
          
          That girl you called fat? She's starving herself.
          
          The women you called bald? She's fighting her life against cancer.
          
          The man you laughed at for having scars? He fought for our country.
          
          The boy you punched in the hall today? He's being abused at home.
          
          The child you called retarded because he's in a wheelchair? They risked their life to save a 4 year old.
          
          That boy you laughed at for crying? His mother died in a hospital.
          
                You think u know them?
                 News flash. You DON'T

I asked someone out and they haven't answered 0of

I don't thing you care about the words that you say
          you are just digging my grave
          I'm broken and wounded 
          But you continue to push me deeper and deeper

Don't forget, I lie, don't believe everything  I say

Life is fantastic, having a panic attack is so much fucking fun

Hey, Ava. It's been awhile since I've seen you. Hope you're okay. See you tomorrow, or whenever you come back. 
                                           -A certain shy and OCD Geek whose name starts with an A