There was a time when i hurt myself many times and I know now that hurting yourself is never the answer. The hardest part is.........i never thought i would become that person. I'm the kind of person who watches movies and always thinks, "Why are they hurting themselves?? It must be painful. Why would anyone do that to themselves?" I'm also the kind of person who gets the smallest scratch because of my own clumsiness & then goes around showing it to every member of my family that's why my grandma even nicknamed me "Flower". Back in school, whenever i saw someone hurting themselves because of love,i would always tell them,Please don't do that and Love yourself instead. I would even say, "Go listen to BTS Love myself instead." I truly believed no pain was worth hurting yourself over. But when i was in that situation, i wasn't thinking like myself anymore.
One time i was in so much emotional pain that i punched myself in the face later i had to put ice on it because it hurt so much. Looking back i don't even recognize that version of myself. And i never imagined i could become someone who would do that.
When I came home today after seeing her again, those memories came rushing back. For a moment, it felt like I was standing in that same dark place again. But I'm okay now & i don't want anyone to think hurting yourself is the answer. It never is. If you're going through something similar, please don't face it alone. Talk to someone you trust. You deserve love, kindness & healing. I just wanted to be honest about a chapter of my life that changed me and taught me lessons I'll carry for the rest of my life ❤️
