𝐍𝐚𝐲𝐚 ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡.

Kurze was geeeeeeeht? :3

omg, new school year starts in five and a half hours. 
          someone pls kill me, I can't do this sh*t anymore qwq
          
          I'm so nervous I can't sleep and im dreading every second of today, help 
          
          Anyways, hope y'all have/had a better night than me TwT

I guess you wonder where I've been~
          Okay, honestly I don't know if yu do, but I've got quite some stuff to talk about  and Wattpad only gives me space for 2000 letters, so I'll keep it as short as possible- 
          
          !TW: Eating Disorder! (won't be detailed, but I still wanted to give you a TW :)) 
          
          So, as you read in the triggerwarning I had/(still) have an eating disorder (anorexia), which is the reason I was gone for a while. 
          But I got admitted to the hospital by a doctor and stayed there for some time, so I am weight restored now (but I still don't know if I will face any long-term consequences lol). 
          
          I'm not feeling great, but everything is slowly getting better, so don't worry :) 
          
          I also don't want any attention or pity from you, but I wanted to give you aat least a short explanation of why I was suddenly gone (and I'm sorry for that btw-).  
          But I'm planning on getting more active on Wattpad again (which is why I wanted to tell you the reason for my absence), so if anyone is bored and interested to chat, just text me :3 
          
          Anyways, hope you have a nice day/night :) 
          Love y'all <3 
          (´｡• ᵕ •｡`)

I am currently listening to the cries of children <3 (there are some on the train and they're fucking pissing me off rn <3) 

Oh my god- I am feeling like shit.
          Like... I literally haven't felt this miserable since years. At least physically. Mentally I am quite okay rn, so it's no big deal- but my body is telling me otherwise lol 
          I am violently trembling and feeling dizzy and nauseous at the same time (I honestly don't even know how that works).
          But at least I don't feel pain, so that's something I guess (which is caused by the amount of painkillers I took).
          Also I am sitting in a bus full of screaming kids, which don't make the situation any better, but oh well.
          
          By the way, I' m really sorry for beeing this inactive and then posting somdthing like this, but I just needed to get rid of my thoughts somewhere- and also I needed to practice my English, because we'll have a speaking test this year :> (which won't be an issue, so at this point I'm mainly practicing for fun lol) 
          
          Well then, Bye Bye 
          Have a nice day y'all <3 

Omg guys, I always complained about not having fanfic ideas and now (after the new Bsd episode) I have like 300 theories and headcanons in mind, BUT IT'S 5AM I DIDN'T GET A SINGLE MINUTE OF SLEEP AND I'M LIVING ON COFFEE AND PAINKILLERS RN help xD 
          
          Also I don't wanna go to school but I have to, because my classmate promised me to bring some instant noodles today (just don't ask) 
          
          And also, you may be wondering why I'm writing in English rn. It's because german is cringe and I'm feeling silly <3. All questions answered

Morgen geht die Schule wieder los. Ich will nicht. Ew. (Hilfe)

Leude, ich hab grade ein neues Google Konto erstellt. 
          Und das nur weil ich meinen Benutzernamen auf Youtube blöd fand, DEN SOWIESO NIEMAND SEHEN KANN, WEIL ICH GAR KEINE KOMMENTARE SCHREIBE! 
          UND JETZT FÄLLT MIR IM NACHHINEIN AUF WIE DUMM UND UNNÖTIG DAS WAR. 
          Jetzt muss ich sämtliche E-Mail Adressen ändern (Zum Glück habe ich zwei und die Hälfte meiner Konten auf der anderen qwq). Das wird ein Spaß- 
          
          Aber hey, immerhin mag ich meinen Youtube Benutzernamen jetzt. TwT
          
          Ich gehe jetzt erstmal meine Lebensentscheidungen überdenken. 
          Bye Bye

Leudeeee TwT 
          Ich schaffe es einfach nicht Fluff zu schreiben (welp qwq).
          
          Ich hab das Gefühl, sobald meine Finger die Tastatur berühren kommt aus meinem Hirn irgendwie nur noch voll der depressive shit raus. :') 
          Mennnnnnno >~< 
          
          Kann mir mal einer Erklären wie des geht qwq (xD) 

Kann man an Langeweile sterben? Wenn ja bin ich nämlich kurz davor TwT