to everyone that follows me or reads my stories ; I've been going thru some very negative things throughout October and into November. it is very hard for me to write right now, in nine days my father will have been gone four years. I ask that you all understand what I am going through and don't choose to leave me since I have had very few updates lately. Anyone who has lost a parent knows that no matter how long it has been, or how easy it has gotten over time, sometimes you can't help but to sink just a little bit into mourning again. I wish you all well, and pray that you understand. blessed be.