Symp·tom
a sign of the existence of something, especially of an undesirable situation.

Ob·liv·i·on
the state of being unaware or unconscious of what is happening.

I'm an optimist, a pessimist, seeing the world as it blurs by at unfathomable speeds. Existing in a world of the hopeful and the hateful, never knowing what shall come next, only knowing that I shall take it head-on and hope that I do not drown.