another miragehound fic is on the way. i’ll give a little teaser...this quote may or may not be in the story.
“It’s like I’m in a constant state of reforgetting. I’m good in the field but as soon as I step off, I remember that I have a tightness around my chest to validate myself. I remember that the confidence I allow myself to feel is only a mask I bare to cover the real insecurities that plague my mind. It’s insanity, is what it is. Repeating the same action to try to get the same results. I repeatedly step out onto the field with this feigned confidence and comfortableness in myself, thinking I can convince myself that I am confident. That I am comfortable with myself. Only to be let down in the end, reducing me to ash. To a crying idiot.”
the fic is called reforget :)