Syren

Sooo do I make a comeback

So to anybody seeing this Hi! I think most of my followers probably either followed around my sam x Colby era or wdw era or the dsmp era... And I mean hey the dream book got views soooo
          
          My name's Syren... Well not actually, my names actually Hope, and I've been writing since I was a little 8 year old in the third grade, when COVID hit when I was around 13-14 I found Wattpad as a way to show my interest in writing while combining it with Sam and Colby at the time... So this started as a sam and Colby account and now I don't even have any of those still...
          
          Anyways it's now August 2024, im 18 and age that younger me never assumed I'd actually make it to... A long time ago I had planned to not make it past Halloween 2023, and I fully planned on doing it until I met some of the best people in my life...
          
          To anybody who stuck around for shortie I was writing that in one of the hardest moments of my life, and the love and support that story for kept me going thank you so much
          
          Pretty much I'm kinda just going off here because I'm going to college soon, and I'm hoping to return here, because quite frankly I never want my love for writing to disappear, and I want to come back to shortie I just needed time away to focus on me and why I should stay alive etc...
          
          Anyways love y'all so much and thx to anyone who's stuck around

This message is for one person specifically... I miss you

I made it to an age I never thought I would, Happy birthday to me!!!

I finally found people who make me feel alive

I used to dream of being an author but now... Now what am i

Also shorties readers!
          
          Unfortunately I don't see myself going back to it maybe someday I will, but I always told myself I'd finish it but tbh we all lost interest by now right? 

I had officially abandoned you guys, but here I am.. back here because for the last four years this has been the one place where I could rent and not have anything come back to me, I hate myself so much...
          
          And I try not to but I just keep hearing and hating, and every now and then I get a few moments up smiling and joy but that feels taken away...
          
          And it's stupid but I'm like obsessed with this guy I've been talking with him, and I know nothing would ever happen cause a ton of reasons but the thought of him having a gf made me so jealous and it's so stupid cause why am I jealous??? Like wtf syren get it together!???

I just graduated and as exiting as it was... I'm so lost now, I don't what I do now, and this is the most alone over ever felt...

Yall finding a roommate for college is way harder than I thought it'd be