Hey don’t think that way, life is hard and all of us have crap moments, some more than others. However eventually there will be a light, that guides your way or something that makes you happy. I’m sure you’ll find happiness, until then look at positivity instead of negativity, because the time with pass quicker in the happy or more positive moments. See the brighter side of things even when you don’t think there is, I purple you Continue to live life even in its up and downs I believe in you