I am always afraid of happiness because it is, in fact, fleeting. It will only stay for a short or long time, depending. That's why I fear feeling this overwhelming emotion. Because every time I feel it, my mind always keeps pacing back and forth, waiting for sadness and anxiety to attack me, waiting for the right time to eat me alive. I always thought that darkness was always waiting for the sun to set to finally cover the world in darkness. The thing is, I am always focused on the darkness conquering the lightness to the point that I don't enjoy the beauty of the sunset before it disappears because I am afraid that the beauty will disappear and will never come back. But darkness is as temporary as light. All I have to do is appreciate both and always think that lightness will always rise.
  



love: Mneme