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Missing you is an ache so deep
It makes it hard to breathe
Thinking about my regrets with you feels like swallowing seawater
Remembering your smile feels like trying to swim but getting tired
Being optimistic makes me tired
Putting up a front like I’m over you is like reaching for a lifesaver that’s too far away
And I can’t fucking breathe
The waves are closing in over my head and I’m trying to touch a surface that isn’t there with my toes
And my heart is pounding so quickly it feels like I’m gonna die, i know i’m gonna die i cant breathe
My body is cold.
All I can see as far as I look in any direction is the ocean. There’s nobody to pull me from this sea of memories and my regrets are nipping at my ankles like sharks out for blood
My wrists, my thighs, my skin is only pure because I’m scared to hurt more
I’m scared to make this pain real
It’s terrifying enough to drown, but to love a person that stopped loving you is to die and still live