TaylorsLarrie1328

In eight (two when I finished writing this) minutes my past self will hear my mum tell her the most devastating news she’ll ever hear. Her entire world will crumble and she’ll live in delusion for the next many months (and still does sometimes). If I could turn back time, I would. If I could do anything to change what happened, I would. If I could do anything to relieve any moment before…, I would. I miss you so much, Liam. So fucking much. As I cry writing about one of the most, if not the most, tragic loss I’ve ever experienced and will experience in my lifetime, I know one thing: you’ve found the peace, the world could never give you, Liam. But you left a wake of chaos with your parting. I miss you so much, Liam, sleep tight. I can’t believe you’ve been sleeping for a year already. I’ll always love you and I’ll always think fondly of you. 

It’s been 11 months without you and my heart still hurts every day. You were supposed to turn 32 a couple of weeks ago, instead your celebration turned into a mourning session because you’re forever young. You’ll live forever, not in your body but in your spirit. I miss you so much, and god I wish I could say you’re still alive, but you aren’t here, you’re not alive anywhere else but in photographs, videos, memories, my head and my heart. 
          Miss you, Liam, hope you’re sleeping well. 

HAPPY 32ND BIRTHDAY TO THE ONE AND ONLY DIFFERENT BEAN NIALLLLLLL! I WISH YOU THE BEST DAY TODAY AND A LOAD OF HAPPINESS!!! 

Today I’m seeing Ed! (Manifest for me that Eddie will sing a 1D song or one of Liam’s songs cuz it’s his birthday) (if he sings one of those songs I’ll cry for so long) 

Happy birthday, Liam! You so very much deserved to get older, but now you’re forever young and you’ll live forever in our hearts as the angel you’ve always been❤️

I see Ed tomorrow (on Liam’s birthday *insert the emoji that has puppy eyes*)

TAYLOR IS ENGAGED OMG I AM SO HAPPY FOR HER 
          SO GLAD SHE FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE WHO TRULY LOVES HER, SEES HER AND LETS HER SHINE 
          STILL CAN’T BELIEVE IT, I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY FOR HER, I CAN’T EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS 
          
          CONGRATULATIONS ​TAYLOR AND TRAVIS (TNT)❤️

10 months without you, I still miss you more than life. I recently printed a picture of you out and cut it into a heart so I could put it in my heart pendant for my necklace. It makes me feel closer to you and every time I miss you (which is a lot) I touch it. I miss you so much, I hope you’ve found the peace you’ve always longed for♥️

SHOWGIRL IS COMING OUT IN LESS THAN TWO MONTHS!!!! I CLAIM ACTUALLY ROMANTIC, CANCELLED! AND THE LIFE OF A SHOWGIRL FEAT SABRINA 

Guys, there’s a butterfly in my room, a red admiral, every time I see one I say “Hi Liam”. I was having a Liam cry session and it’s literally the middle of the night and somehow a butterfly made it into my room. It’s a sign, it was Liam, I just know it was T-T