Isabelle Ritz

I'm not sure if anyone will see this but I feel like it's important to check in once in a while. Mental health is SO INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT!!!
          
          So please, tell me what has been up with your life recently. No judgement or any bullying will be tolerated here.
          
          I'll go first.
          
          Since the passing of my friend Ty, I've been having a hard time doing things he and I used to do, like playing guitar, going on long walks to our secret spot at the lake, and even listen to Cage the Elephants song Cigarette daydreams. It was the first song he learned and the last song he tried teaching me. If you know the song, the lyrics "you were only 17" hurts me so badly now because he turned 17 three days passing. One more thing I have trouble doing now is smoking. We would always climb on his roof and lay there and smoke until it got super late, but I'm kinda happy I've stopped. When I first found out about Ty, I stopped everything. Smiling, sleeping, eating, pretty much stopped living for the first few months. I was so depressed I was taken out of school and finished the year at home. But now I'm entering my final year of highschool and I can't help but feel so empty again knowing that Ty and I will never be able to graduate together, have our prom together, even have our graduation party like we planned. Most days I feel alright like I've finally finished grieving, but other days I laying bed completely comatose. Sometimes it lasts multiple days. I've been reaching out to many grief counselors and therapists, and I think I have improved. Not everything will go back to normal, but I know Its ok to move on now. I feel like Ty would be so happy I did. ( fuck I'm crying again lol) I'll still visit our spots but instead of being sad, I'll just try to think of our good funny memories and moments. I'll always love him though.♥️
          

I know I don't post anything story wise but I just want to say a public goodbye to my dearest friend and aspiring musician Ty. He passed away on Saturday February 4th at just 17 years old due to illness. He was a wonderful young man with a heart bigger than our whole planet. He was always making people laugh and taking care of his friends and family before himself.  Everyone who knew you knows how much you loved listening to and making music and I'm so thankful to have been there to help you along the way so you could find your confidence and push you to be your best. I just wish you weren't alone when you passed  and you were surrounded by your family and wonderful girlfriend. I'll make sure to keep your books and notes safe my lovely boy. ️️
          
          Goodbye Ty. 2006-2023

So... My cousin has come out to me as straight. She made this A HUGE deal by over reacting and even crying. But she literally came out as straight and that kinda pissed me off because EVERYONE knows that she's homophobic and she had the audacity to say " I've decided to finally tell you my biggest secret. I'm straight." Like bish, stfu and don't talk about coming out if you're homophobic.
          
          
          
          
          But on a lighter note I got some hella cute jewelry today. I used a lot of my savings to buy my new collection. I now have 21 rings, 4 new sets of earrings, a necklace, a new eyeshadow palette, eyeliner and a new lipstain. I am VERY happy. My account is sobbing but who cares?
          
          I love y'all happy Pride month 

I just sat up in bed really fast and hit my head hard on the top bunk... That shit hurt.
          
          Good night!! 
          
          9:34 pm 

To my followers :  Do you ever just like, cry for no reason at 2 am like I am right now?  Well I guess I have a reason. I've been making a massive Christmas gift since October and my little brother threw a fit and broke it and now I'm depressed about it because I spent a lot of time and money on it. It was for my aunt and uncle who have been having a really difficult year and I just wanted to make them something nice for their house but now I can't give it to them. 
          
          But yeah anyway HAPPY HOLIDAYS OR WHATEVER YOU CELEBRATE (or if you don't celebrate just have happy days!!)