I don’t think that you ever imagined how much pain I would be in once you were gone,
Because if you had; you wouldn’t have left me.
Words cannot express the amount of emotions that have come with trying to let you go. 
Every day has been a struggle.
Its been a year and its still hard for me to grasp that your really gone.
Sometimes, still, I don’t know what to do with myself.
There have been days that I haven’t wanted to get out of bed,
And days that if I allowed myself, I could cry and cry and cry.
A year later and I still sit and stare at your pictures, 
Sometimes I sleep with them by my side.
I miss your voice.
I miss your smile,
Your eyes, your touch
Your smell, your phone calls
And your comforting ways
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Sometimes I just wish, I could run away and hide.
No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside.
How can I stay here and live each day a lie,
When all I want to do is close my eyes and die?
I see the pain I cause you, with every tear I shed.
I plead with you now mum, let me go instead?
I wish I could take you with me, to a happy place,
Whether it exists though, is time for me to face.
Can I ask for your forgiveness? For you to set me free,
It may seem ungrateful, but this life's not meant for me.
Thank you for all your love, for all the time we shared,
It means the world to me, to know that someone cared.