I have a massive headache, my dads drunk with his friends and we don’t know IF they have corona, I don’t feel safe around my family and I wanna leave this house. My brother also DOSENT make me feel safe he has sexually, emotionally, and physically abused me. My dad has emotionally abused me. I wanna leave but I’m scared of what will happen. Both sides of my family are bad. I have like 5 people out of my WHOLE family I trust. I’m on the edge of having a breakdown. Me and my friend had a plan to run away but school got cancelled and I haven’t been in contact with her this whole time. She might have been taken out of state and I’m really scared. I started cutting again. I had a long time (since September 2019 - now) where I didn’t cut but I started again and now I feel hopeless. I’m stressed with everything going on and I hate myself. Okay I’m done venting.