TechSOS

holy fuck. ok hi so you definitely do NOT know me but jsyk i was just scrolling down my followlist to see who i should unfollow (to regulate notifications n such) and i found a user named @/BadsansesXreader and I was curious so I scrolled down and I saw an old post from May 2021 with you on ur old acc (@/DepressoNonExpresso) talking to them so I decided to tap on your old profile too and then I found this account and holy crap I feel like I discovered an ancient fossil. hi hello wattpad user @TechSOS are you by any chance alive

215 FREAKING NOTIFICATIONS?!?!?!

HAPPY BDAY TO ME

I have discord now lmao-
          

Hello again,
          A question for you.
          Should I still continue Wonderland... Or not?
          Its cringe honestly but I want your opinion.

Salutations!
          Hello Hello!
          I'm alive and somewhat recovering.
          How are you?
          How is life?
          Im sorry I wasn't so active.
          Life is rough.
          But I'm here now. 
          I'm still here.
          A miracle.
          Truly.
          Hello Mother!

If this account is deleted,
          Goodbye.
          I am either beaten to death or suicide.
          Sorry.
          Love you all.
          Let's see how long I will live.
          Will I finally be put of my misery?
          NO.
          To hell I go.
          Goodbye mother, friends and loved ones on Wattpad.
          See you someday? I don't know.
          Goodbye

Drugs.
          That's all I say.

Y'know what?
          I admit it.
          It's all my fault.
          That I exist.
          Man, I hate the fact I can't kill myself.
          I'm such a coward.
          An a attention seeking coward.
          A lair.
          A good one too.
          I lie everyday.
          "I love you.''
          That was all I ever truly wanted.
          Some one to truly love me.
          My dad to.
          Not to be always trying to be PERFECT.
          I told my Mom:
          "You failed."
          "Both of them did."
          "I should have died."
          " Just like I almost did when I was born."
          "Too bad God exsits."
          "TOO BAD I EXSIST!"
          To hell I go then Mom, to hell I go.
          Always EYES on me.
          The anxiety.
          The FEAR.
          I honestly shouldn't be here.
          I WANT TO GO HOME.
          Why?
          
          Why cant I kill myself?
          Oh, I'll tell you!
          I'm such a nasty, attention seeking bitch.

So like uh-
          Hey.
          I'm (some how) still alive and is slowly dying.
          So uh, don't expect me to do expect me live.
          Heh.................
          Man, being alive sucks.
          Especially when you're only so young yet your mentality and understanding is off charts and there's no one who understands you.
          
          BECAUSE THEY ARE'NT YOU.