Ted

Hi, I’m going to post about the positive shit in my life now.
          
          Me and my friend L has gotten closer over the last few months and they are truly the best. We started getting closer after we made a minecraft world together and played on it constantly. We even have kids and are engaged! I’m just sad we don’t hang out irl that much because my mom is homophobic and thought we were dating lol. (For context, I’m a boy and he’s nonbinary and presents more masculine) 
          
          We have a few hang out things planned like baking cupcakes, cuddling on the couch and watching Spider-Man movies, getting ice cream, going to a carnival, literally just holding hands. I can go on for hours about how cool they are but I think 2 paragraphs is enough.
          
          Goodbye -Ted.

I feel guilty for so many things. And I’m gonna confess to it on Wattpad because no one reads this shit anyways. I feel shitty for basically ignoring everyone in my life right now, I’ve only been talking to 2 people and they are helping me through it. But goddamn i wish it was enough to make me forget all about what a J and S did to me. J sexually assaulted me recently and it fucked. Me. Up. It  almost pushed me back into a relapse. It brought back memories of when S first sexually assaulted me too back in 2017-18. I was so close to forgetting about her too and I was getting better before that whole situation with J. 
          
          On the other hand, my situation with N. I just feel like shit for breaking things off with them over text, that’s just a fucked thing to do to someone. I truly want the best for them, and I felt the best was for me to leave. I want to say sorry but I feel like he doesn’t want to talk about it anymore, which is understandable on his end. 
          
          N if ur reading this, I’m sorry I hurt you. It’s the last thing I wanted to do but you deserve someone who can fill all ur needs. You don’t need me and I hope ur doing better without me.
          
          Goodbye - Ted

Hi :)