TeresaJimenez

He is the one holding the trigger... One word and everything ends,  one final word and everything shatters,  one word and everything follows... I want to beg him to save my life,  but one look at it and i know its over.  I want to say i love him over and over but i know its too late.   .i want him to be happy with his decision as i was happy with mine... If the only reason for him to live happily is without the sight  of me then i would gladly end mine... This is not his fault...dont blame anyone..  Im happy... I really am...

taekoofy

Hello dear,
          
          Sorry for dropping at random. If you find it intrusive feel free to delete the comment. I  wanted to tell that I have started a new book on similar genre to eyes never lie. 
          
          A top tae murder mystery thriller. it would mean a lot if you could check it out.... though no pressure. Have a great day army ^^ ^^ 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/367699877?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=taekookarchive0112

TeresaJimenez

He is the one holding the trigger... One word and everything ends,  one final word and everything shatters,  one word and everything follows... I want to beg him to save my life,  but one look at it and i know its over.  I want to say i love him over and over but i know its too late.   .i want him to be happy with his decision as i was happy with mine... If the only reason for him to live happily is without the sight  of me then i would gladly end mine... This is not his fault...dont blame anyone..  Im happy... I really am...

TeresaJimenez

Everything about my life screams pressure!  From the beginning it's only bout being a perfect student,  then for being a perfert employee,  a good daughter,  a mother and a woman.. What im planning to do in the future will help me escape from this situation  that's why im thinking if its worth it... Before as i heard from news about people who mercilessly end their life because of nonsense,  i pity them... I judged them easily... But now i kinda understand what they are feeling is a natural thing to do for a coward,  for a weak,  for a brainless human... Yes. ..we are all but humans... I am definitely one of them... Those who gave up their joy and happiness in exchange of a deep slumber... Of the unknown... I may be punished... But that must be my destiny....

TeresaJimenez

I am typing this because im certain right now of what i want to do... And instead of blaming someone for my wrong decision,  i blame it to myself... For being a coward and for not letting my family to be a part of this wrecked life i have.. My soul is at ease of my decision,  im just waiting for his... I hope he would consider a day, a month or a year before he finally end this... Because i'll definitely would missed them... Right now,  i dont know what's going on with this crazy brain of mine... My heart is a bit light...i hope my fate will allow me to end this.  Forgive me oh Lord for being a coward... Forgive me for being a burden...

TeresaJimenez

Trying to hold on to this relationship is the same as holding with my dear life... But now,  the reason that im still breathing is beginning to give up on this tiny glitter of hope i have... I was scared,  scared of what i can do,  scared of losing the people i treasure all my life. ..but as i look back,  and see their lives now... I know and i believe im no longer needed... That nothing will ever change just because of my mere existence... I ask and pray to God to enlighten me for the last time... I beg to allow me to live and cherish the days i have left with people i wont ever forget,  who had been good enough  to me... Now,  i can say im ready.. I know im a coward to escape from this life,  but for me this is much easier than living my life empty. If only i could say to someone to pull the trigger straight to this empty brain i have or inside my shallow broken heart,  but certainly fate wont allow me...