Ugh. I feel like I don't fit in with my friend group anymore. We've all been friends since pretty much 7th grade and I'm going into my senior year of high school. I don't know. They just hang out with eachother more than me, and while some of it may be because they all kinda live close together and I live further away. But I sometimes get the feeling like they actually plan get together specifically without me. In every friend circle there's the one person everyone just kinda, isn't complete besties with, and I feel like it's me.
My friends have all become part of the LGBT community, which I am fine with, I care about them. But best friend said she had a thing for me, and when I told her I just didn't feel that way too, our friendship fell apart. We're not longer best friends, heck, I don't even know if we truely are even just plain friends. I'm the only person who is 'strait' in this group, and I get teased for it. They always questioning me about if I'm "really strait", and have even laughed while saying "We'll turn you gay in no time".
I used to feel so loved and accepted with them, but now, I feel targeted and an outsider. I want to break away, but it's my senior year and they're really the only friends I got. I don't want to be completely isolated in my last year of high school, but right now being alone is the only time I feel... safe.
