Okay, it’s time to talk about a pretty serious topic. So, lately, I’ve been on the journey of changing my mentally of negative thoughts. These thoughts consisted of self-hatred, pessimistic outcomes, and so on, so forth. Well, not too long ago, my emotions were at its max and I felt horrible. When I thought that I was improving to love myself, it all just vanished one day. Every time I saw myself in the mirror, I had to look away because I hated the way I looked. Everything from the way I looked to my... let’s say “role” as a human being. I thought that, compared to everyone else, I was a failure. As I continued to think these thoughts, it worsened hour by hour. I spoke about this issue with some friends of mine instead of dealing with this alone. Honestly, it really was a lot of help, but deep down, every single one of my self-depreciating thoughts continued to cut me up inside. But, about a week ago, I read a message from a, quote on quote, stranger. I learned a lot reading that very message. It might sound weird but it made me realize all the values in life. My very problem was that I was too stubborn to not push myself. To realize that if I don’t change sooner than later, I’ll be stuck in this cycle of self-hatred. So, as a conclusion, don’t become your own enemy. I know this process isn’t going to come in a snap, but at least I know that the day will come when I’m rid of any hatred of myself. You just have to believe. Believe and achieve.
Also, I want to thank my friends who helped me through this adventure. I love you guys so much and I can’t imagine life without. Thank you for sticking with me from the moments we met, thank you for listening to me.. just, thank you for everything.
...What a long message.