✍︎︎Ray♫

sometimes i wonder what how everyone would've acted if i didn't survive that car crash and they got a call or found out i died. i wonder what they would've done. i wonder if they would've cared.

kms so anybody trying to call or text me right now, unless you have snapchat, ill be unavailable because my phone finally gave out on me so i wont have a phone for a while

help I just read love is blind and it was so bad what was I doing last year omg  
          
          THANKFULLY. thankfully. The Black Rose is way better. Better grammar, less romance (in some ways, I guess? Just not so much "I love you", it's just basic couple things), but less romance, and a better storyline. 

so writing the book is taking longer than expected, but I've been working on it. not promising this, but the book should be out before the end of this year. I've had a lot going on family wise, friend-wise and enemy wise lately, so I haven't had the mentality to work on the book, but I have been doing it in small portions. 

"Ok but what if your guys' relationship doesn't last"
          
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          i actually feel good about myself and feel loved for once and i also love this man with all my heart so if (i say if cause it'll never happen), we do breakup, im done with myself and everyone else and yall can deal without me because atp i would literally be nothing

my room is so bipolar like why is the right side hot asf and then the left side is antarctica. im over here sleeping in long pants, a t-shirt, my man's hoodie and then my blanket because im FREEZING, but im also hot asf at the same time. explain that to me. from the words of people making fun of my sexuality: "PICK A SIDE"

im over here stroking my dick i got lotion on my dick bruh i be stoking my shit im horny as fuck man im a freak :3

cz im a griiiinderrrr ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh griiinderrr ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
          
          idk I've had that stuck in my head for almost 3 days

urgh my dad is coming tomorrow and staying for 5 days.. I'm nervous but happy at the same time.
          
          But mostly happy because he said when he'd take me to the mall, he'd get me a pair of converse. PLUS he likes almost everything I like too so it'll be fun enjoying the things I like with him, like Hot Topic, Spencer's, AND HE ALSO LOVES ICP. I LITERALLY HAVE AN ICP SHIRT. 

oh lord I'm 16 now :< But I had the best weekend ever. My papa John came up from Texas, my cousin Noah came over, my mom and her boyfriend Adam came, MY boyfriend came, and my bestest friends Allie, Kalynn, Lexi, Nadia, Crow and Alex came as well. Crow, Nadia, and Alex left, so me, Kalynn, Allie and Lexi went to the mall today and we all got shirts from Spencer's >0< But this was the best weekend I could've asked for, and I love you all so much!! <3 Wish I could post pictures on here I'd share what I got :(