Is it bad that I'm getting to the point of depression and sexual frustration that I'm probably gonna start just giving up my dignity to at least feel something. This spot where my heart should be, I want to feel wanted by someone at least. Sadly Cupid seems to hate me since I haven't been in a serious relationship in forever. My mom looked on the verge of tears, my dad said to have more respect for myself. I told them, I just gave up, i lost motivation to write, shower, eat, hell even playing video games seems like the biggest chore for me. I've stopped taking my medication.