ThaMazerunnarfan

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Guys I need to fucking rant. '
          	
          	Three of my current teachers, THREE, won't be there next year. 
          	-One is fine, he's my Swedish teacher and prolly a pedo ngl. 
          	-One will come back, he's on parental leave. But he's my fav and he makes the english lessons so funny and just generally awesome. He's a so called legendary teacher
          	-One got fired, and he was my fav above absolutly all. He wasn't even technically my teacher, he teachers maths, science and tech to other classes in my grade. But me and two others got harder math lessons with him once a week. But that motivated me to come to school most times, through whatever. I value that above so much. And that was one of the few lessons I felt I learned anything on. The thought of gooing the next year without it makes me actually feel sick. And he was literally the best math teacher in our school and such a good person. 
          	
          	I had three fucking fav teachers. ONE will be there. ONE. Social studies is about to be my fav ngl. The others won't-
          	
          	Also a guy I know quite well, but it's complecated (like are we friends, do we hate each other, do we really bother?) ´, but we know each other quite well. He'll go away after the summer to study in another part of the country. Not that I despratly want him to stay. 
          	
          	It's just that so much is changing, and last time it felt like that was two years ago, Took me a half year to realise the weight inside of me probably was depression and that my thoughts came from being passive suicidal... I do not want to go back. I never solved it..

Slayqueendivabaddie

@ThaMazerunnarfan ‘sometimes change is something that’ll make us stronger in the end‘ - me bc ℹ didnt want to look for a quote
          	  I get change is hard and going back to a dark place bc of that change makes u want it just to end. Im trying to say something inspiring but I’m terrible at it. So ig we’re going to have to be cliche.  Whatever happens is Whats supposed to happen and there’s a reason and we just got to keep going and fighting. Yea that was lame. I hope you’ll find peace in this awful world and pep talk
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ThaMazerunnarfan

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Guys I need to fucking rant. '
          
          Three of my current teachers, THREE, won't be there next year. 
          -One is fine, he's my Swedish teacher and prolly a pedo ngl. 
          -One will come back, he's on parental leave. But he's my fav and he makes the english lessons so funny and just generally awesome. He's a so called legendary teacher
          -One got fired, and he was my fav above absolutly all. He wasn't even technically my teacher, he teachers maths, science and tech to other classes in my grade. But me and two others got harder math lessons with him once a week. But that motivated me to come to school most times, through whatever. I value that above so much. And that was one of the few lessons I felt I learned anything on. The thought of gooing the next year without it makes me actually feel sick. And he was literally the best math teacher in our school and such a good person. 
          
          I had three fucking fav teachers. ONE will be there. ONE. Social studies is about to be my fav ngl. The others won't-
          
          Also a guy I know quite well, but it's complecated (like are we friends, do we hate each other, do we really bother?) ´, but we know each other quite well. He'll go away after the summer to study in another part of the country. Not that I despratly want him to stay. 
          
          It's just that so much is changing, and last time it felt like that was two years ago, Took me a half year to realise the weight inside of me probably was depression and that my thoughts came from being passive suicidal... I do not want to go back. I never solved it..

Slayqueendivabaddie

@ThaMazerunnarfan ‘sometimes change is something that’ll make us stronger in the end‘ - me bc ℹ didnt want to look for a quote
            I get change is hard and going back to a dark place bc of that change makes u want it just to end. Im trying to say something inspiring but I’m terrible at it. So ig we’re going to have to be cliche.  Whatever happens is Whats supposed to happen and there’s a reason and we just got to keep going and fighting. Yea that was lame. I hope you’ll find peace in this awful world and pep talk
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ThaMazerunnarfan

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GUYS I JUST CAME ACROSS MY ALL TIME FAV THEORY ABOUT A CHARACTER BECAUSE IT MADE SO MYCH SENSE AND WENT AGANST ALL THE STEREOTYPES THIS CHARACTER FELL UNDER AND GOES AGANST ALL THE HATE FOR THIS CHARACTER!!
          
          So to explain what this is about, I came across the wonderful theory of Jax, from The Amazing Digital Circus, was trans, or more of doesbt feel at home as a guy but isn’t really “open” as trans to anyone, even himself.
          
          I won’t explain this theory in detail rn, if not anyone wants me to (please ask me I am actually fucking begging you) otherwise I might do it anyways later ✌️

ThaMazerunnarfan

Hello I just wanted to say that I've been a lot offline and I've barely interacted on wattpad whatsoever. I plan on doing so a lot in the future though. 
          
          But ever since november I've had problems with terrible head aches, a month in my dad took me to the doctor and it's been quite a ride since. I've gotten to know I have a tumor, even though apparently it's bit the cause and will be left alone? Weird since the doctors mail sounded like it was but who cares. 
          
          Anyways now they're convinced that it's migrane, but I'm not convinced. They gave me medicine for it. I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE FELT WORSE. Like it was so horrible. I was soo tired, I slept for like 9 hours at least every night. My head felt like it was exploiding at times. When I walked it felt like I saw the world through a screen. And I could not torelate light or sound. For like a month. 
          
          So I stopped this weekend and I'm better. And therefore I expect that I'll be more active now. And I have a doctor appointment on friday so I hope it'll go well <3333

ThaMazerunnarfan

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@iloveaspen Yeah they literally seem to be unable. Every time we have contact with the motherfuckers they say new shit. Like do I feel like I am dying from light, sound and stress because of the tumor, migraine, neck problems or stress? Like chose one at least. Also I've stared to write now, but it takes far more time cause I do not have the energy to do so... but I am still writing :)
            
            Thxxx for the concern <3
            I hope you're doing well
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iloveaspen

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@ThaMazerunnarfan HOLY SHIT IM SO SORRY I DIDNT SEE THIS! Please continue to choose your health over wp, and I hope they can decide what it is and how to treat it.
            
            Hope you feel better soon!!
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ThaMazerunnarfan

@Yominho Yeah. Also those damn doctors can never decide what it is. They've said it's the tumor, migraine, stress and now neck pain! Like come on. Decide for once! 
            
            Also thx and I am trying to take much good care of myself as possible (-full hour sleep)
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ThaMazerunnarfan

LADIES, GENTLEMEN, NONBINARY AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN YESTERDAY ON THE 21ST OF MARS WAS MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSERY FOR THIS WATTPAD ACCOUNT
          AND ITS ALSO MY SISTERS BIRTHDAY <333

ThaMazerunnarfan

AWWWW THANKS <3
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@ThaMazerunnarfan HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER
            AND CONGRATS ON THE YEAR ANNIVERSERY
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ThaMazerunnarfan

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GUYS I AM FUCKING SERIOUS CHECK THE FUCK OUT THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS THE 8 EPISODE JUST CAME OUT AND HOLY FUCKING SHIT THATS THE BEST IVE EVER SEEN AND OH MY MOTHER FUCKING GOSH I AM IN FUCKING CHOCK LIKE I NEED EPISODE 8
          THIS IS BETTER THAN THE FAN THEORIES AND THOSE MOTHER FUCKERS WERE CRAZY
          THE REFRENCES TO I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM WERE FUCKING PERFECTION
          IF YOU LOST HOPE AFTER THE STRANGER THINGS FINAL IN LIKE EVERYTHING THIS IS THE MOTHER FUCKING CURE

ThaMazerunnarfan

@hairgelneedsMinho Yeah I also really like Ragatha, I've somehow seen so much hate, which I just can't get!? How do you hate that sweetie? I also believe that she'll probably have a completly new layer, or I kind of hope that she'll have one, due to her before being "people pleaser" and that thing Gangle said about it being hard knowing what's genuine and such. I hope we'll see an absolute genuinly acting Ragatha in the final.
            Also, I ABSOLUTLY LOVE CAINE, HIS WHOLE CHARACTER, AND HOW MUCH IT REFRENCES TO AM
            But I can't also wait for the final, even though it's absolutly freaking me out due to my country having an holiday that day and I will be with my family during that whole weekend and I wanna watch the final live, but I maybe can't, and now I am freaking out
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hairgelneedsMinho

@ThaMazerunnarfan I LOVE YOUR OPINIONNN THEY'RE ALL SO GOOD AND WELL WRITTEN 
            Hmm i think Kinger is my favorite character, Caine is my favourite AI (love his energy and his complexity), I really like Jax's character too :D
            I also like Ragatha and i feel bad because she's misunderstood by most of the fandom 
            Ughhh i love them all in their own wayyy I can't wait for the finale ️️
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ThaMazerunnarfan

@hairgelneedsMinho I LOVE THEM ALL
            LIKE EVEN CAINE AND BUBBLE TO BE HONEST
            BUT if I had to choose I'd actually say Kinger, Zooble and Jax, due to many diffrent reasons. I do love them all though and I could go on for hours about why. 
            Who's your fav???? :DD
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