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Gods, okay. So I’m back a my old elementary school because my brother has his end of year show here and I just h ad e so many memories here, I’m sitting at one of me and my former best friend’s favorite spots and I hate it, I hate it because I miss her, I miss her even when she abandoned me when we turned eleven, even if the very next year she made fun of me, insulted me both behind my back and to my face, even if when I said I didn’t want to be her friend anymore she started spending more time and being nice to me just to be a bitch a few weeks later, I still miss her, I thought we would be best friends forever, I thought we would travel the world together, live near each other, fuck I shouldn’t miss her but I do, and I still feel like it’s all my fault, like I wasn’t good enough and I’m scared that my new friends will do the same things she did, I fucking hate this, I hate myself
Also my mom isn’t making things better with all her fucking comments about how rude I am to put my headphones on but there were too many noises in the crowd, I feel like I can’t breath, like I shouldn’t, I’m a wast of oxygen