Drea

Heyy, friend! :)

So I wrote a gothic short story for my English class and my teacher said it was one of the best he’s ever read by a student. I’m thinking about posting it on here but I’m not so sure. So here’s me asking, should I post it or not?

Also just let me say this there’s nothing wrong with being awkward or shy. I was just simply not happy with the way I was because for me these few things stoped me from doing what I currently love. I hope I don’t offend you or anything 

I would often tell a few of friends this but they didn’t really understand but still tried to encourage me and help me through this time. I gotta say the few friends that actually encouraged me helped a lot. At the time I only saw the bad qualities of me and I wanted to be a better version. So I started taking baby steps. An example of one of the baby steps is that I would try sitting closer to the front of the class and would try raising my hand for most questions. These baby step took lots of courage. I wanted to be in plays so I tried out for them and yeah I only got small parts at first but that really helped get over public speaking. Flash forward to freshman year of high school, I took a public speaking class to fully get over it and to get better at it. I passed the class and got all A’s on my presentations. I’m currently both in band and choir and I have first clarinet which means I sorta play a different part then the rest and it’s mainly by myself. I’m still getting over my fear of singing in public mainly because I still feel very awkward with it. And there’s nothing wrong with being awkward but it shouldn’t stop you from doing the things you want to do. In the end I went from being a timid, shy, quiet girl, with lots of self hate to a girl who’s learning to love herself, someone who’s outgoing and is not afraid to speak her mind. Yes I still have my awkward moments but I don’t my awkwardness stop me from doing what I want. Also sorry that this is very long but I hope this answers your question:)))

Sorry I haven’t replied I’ve actually been really busy with school and soccer (I basically eat breath and sleep soccer rn). But my process of breaking out of my shell and becoming who I am today has been a long and (for the most part slow) road. It was full of ups and downs. Growing up as a kid I was never really allowed to do anything. Like birthday parties, sleepovers or simply just being out with friends. When I went to birthday parties I would have to stay near my parents and that mainly didn’t allowed me to properly socialize with other kids, so I believe this is where my awkwardness and bad social skills came from. But I never really noticed how extreme it was till middle school. I remember wanting to do things like be in plays, having a solo in band or choir, and simply wanting to answer questions in class but I couldn’t. It was like something in me wouldn’t allow me. Every time I tried it ended up with me being incredibly awkward and almost nearly having a break down because of it. I should probably mention I was going through some pretty tough times at that time which made things worse. I remember being disappointed because I couldn’t do those things.

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