I want to gain the skill of not caring. I want to gain the skill of ignoring someone's words and staying calm and proving a point against them and somehow staying on their side. I want to gain the skill of weighted, intelligent ignorance where I can ignore someone's effect on me and my emotions. I want to be numb to the negative fight against myself, but oh so strong against the fight against my brothers sisters and those in between. Oh so strong for those that can't be. Oh so strong for those I feel in need to protect. Oh so strong for my kin.