Me: So what happens when you eat all the food?
Bro: *shrugs*
Me: It leaves nothing for the rest of us.
Bro: *giggles gleefully*
Me, half starved and dehydrated, sleepless from nightmares, sore from jobs, and fed up with my brothers: How do you think the rest of us feel when your greedy ass complains that you're starving and about to pass put from hunger?
Bro: I dunno
Me: Hollow
And you wanna know what's worse?
I saw someone on Friday. Someone who hurt me, who broke me. A stalker, a guy who would talk about... using me. He scares me to the very core of my being.
My depression and anxiety spiked, and this is the second night that I want to cry and scream, but my throat is too dry, and my tears don't exist.
I have a girl in my life. She's my everything, she's all I want, all I want is her. She makes me so f***ing happy, if anything happened to her I would die. She's perfect, for I have yet to find a flaw (besides dead baby jokes lol).
When I'm with her, the whole world disappears, and the next thing I know, I've spent all my money on macaroons on the first date
As you can see, my life is a balancing act, but goddamn, my happiness outweighs the sadness.