ThatSunflowerGirl

Every so often I come back here. Truthfully it’s a bittersweet thing to see how far I’ve come. From a kid who finally felt seen to an adult who has healed a lot of the wounds that kid had. There are a few people on here that I wouldn’t have made it through those times without. I hope you’re all doing well and I hope that only good things have found you.

I’ve found some of my old writing and while i’m in awe at how nice it all sounds detail wise, i’m finding myself wondering where all that passions gone. I want to get back to it. It always seems like wishful thinking, but it’s going to happen.

So I’ve been rewriting Elouise and I really want to start a new story with a few new characters. I personally do a lot of OC character works on MeWe. I’ll probably start a new story or two. We’ll see what happens! Anyways, heya guys! How’s it goin?

It’s been a hot minute. How’s everyone?

”She was known for being out of her mind. People had promised her sanity and constant happiness, but she’d known it was all a dream. Something she couldn’t really reach. She wasn’t meant to be like everyone else and she was okay with that. Instead she stares into space and imagines what it’d be like if everything was how she’d imagined it to be. She knew it wouldn’t be perfect but she didn’t mind. Why would she? All she craved was something other than this numb. This silence. This absolute torture. She was a firm believer of fate and that alone lead her all sorts of ways. Which one will she go down today?” 

  Down the hole and off to Wonderland. We’ve been waiting dear Harley 
          
          ~A thing I wrote

I used to think that making a story slower was something I should apologize for. I will no longer apologize for giving you my vision exactly how I imagine it. No more "Please bare with me" because honestly I rushed a lot when I initially started this book and I seriously dislike it. Elouise is far slower and so is the ever so loved Sherlock when it comes to these kinds of things. She doesn't just trust. Expect actual changes in this story. If everyone wishes I can post an un-edited version some day showing how my little teenage self wrote it fulled by nothing but insecurities. If I've learned anything after what all I've went through and after years of someone finally showing me that I am enough just how I am, I think I can actually write this the way I'd always imagined it. No worrying about who likes it and who doesn't. This place used to be a safe space for me. I plan for it to stay that way. I plan to use this place to help myself grow. Mainly mentally. That's all. 
          
          All The Love,
                    Harley.

Just uploaded the first rewritten chapter. Go ahead and read if you would like. Hope you all enjoy!

So. After probably years of being absent, I've decided that im coming back. I want to rewrite most of Elouise and add in the writing style that I have come to have at this point. I'm bringing Elouise back. Also, I will be changing my account around as far as my bio and such. For anyone who used to read Elouise, I'm sorry for the wait. All the love, Harley.

Thanks for all the votes it means so much to me xx

Hey there just thought you'd like to know I finnished the first chapter.