I don't know who need to hear this, but I love you. You are so extremely valid, and all of your emotions matter. You are loved, you are accepted, you have so much to lie for. don't think about the bad things, think about every little good thing, some random kid on the internet really loves and cares about you and spends too much time crying because they feel responsible when someone they know leaves. Please, please, please, keep fighting. I love you, we love you, you are loved, you are valid, you are beautiful <3