Okay, so guys, if anyone is still there, a life update:
I'm actually really happy now. I still feel pretty lonely at times, but I'm happy with my life, even though I've been having pretty though time. I've been dating for over a year now, and I couldn't have found a better partner.
I also got into the upper secondary school/college that i wanted, and it's been fun. Tbh, i enjoy my fandom days, and I miss you all. It's kind of sad to think that it's over and y'all have moved on. I still think about you a lot.
With love, Emma.