im gay

one of my coworkers is exactly my type  he's 5'9, kinda gingery brunette, with scruffy facial hair. think sapnap in 2020 kind of facial hair. I'm also pretty sure I have synesthesia, because when I talk to people I perceive them as colours and smells, then (I think this is the autism) I sometimes associate a bug and a flower/plant with them. 
          
          for example, my really hot co-worker is yellow, and those yellow car air fresheners that look like trees, bees, and dandelions.
          
          my girlfriend is sage green, pothos plants, and the smell after it rains.

Okay so I mentioned this girl Alexis before, this person at day treatment asked if I was secretly dating her. Alexis is great. She's super sweet and the most cliche thing happened today. For reference, she's 4'10, and I'm like 5'6 with my boots on. So basically she was swinging between 2 couches and she slipped and fell on me and holy shit thank god I was wearing a mask because I was definitely blushing. Like this amazing girl just fell into you, would you not get flustered? Anyways we went to an art museum and there was tiddies in some of the art lmao.

Okay so I found a larger paintbrush in the garage and just did another coat. Since it's a larger brush, about 2.5 in versus 1 in, it will have less visible brush strokes, hopefully?

Okay update on the whole power strip situation;
          I found a paintbrush and paint that was left in the kitchen when we moved in, so I painted over the area. I'm waiting for it to dry to do another coat, other than that I think I'm good! My dad won't know partly because he never comes into my room) and because it looks great
          

So like I had a power strip gorilla taped to my wall, just extra strong duck tape, and when it started to peel off, I accidentally kicked it and it peeled up all the paint to the drywall. My dad's going to fucking kill me. I have to like glue some paper or something over it, then like paint over it. Fuck my life. I'm so fucked. So so fucked. 
          
          Okay but my landlords left the paint cans in the kitchen area so I don't have to paint match it and pay 20 bucks, just find the right can. Still my dad's going to kill me if I don't get it fixed soon.
          
          The paint is only peeled up in about a 2 square inch area so it's not that bad, right? No it gets worse. My led strips are also held up with gorilla tape. A 3 inch by .75 inch strip every 15 inches or so (?) so I'm fucked even worse. Jesus my dad's going to kill me. This is bad. This is very bad, very very bad.

You know what? I wish I had a someone to make out with right now, i miss it. It's fun and I hate being alone. Shit dude I'd making with a straight dude and pretend to be a girl (I'm a trans guy) if that's what it takes. I just wanna swap spit with someone. I want someone to absolutely fucking rail me against a door, ya know?? Like I'd it really that much to ask for??

I found out I have a hair pulling kink last night at like 1:30am ✌️