I feel so disconnected from reality. Maybe it's the guys I love, maybe it's my RP, or maybe it's the stories I make in my head. I feel like every day becomes less real and more or less of a hallucination. It's like my mind is on a drug that if not satisfied by doing something, it will go crazy and make stuff up and break me farther away from life. I want to just forget everything and start over, but my mind is almost corrupted. I haven't done anything to satisfy my "need," and I'm almost losing grip. Please, just make me forget everything so I can just be myself again. I can't do this much longer, and I think just leaving everything behind is what's left.