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@staynation_ thank you, but i have no place to escape, no place to run, no place to hide, i try to find and fight for happiness, but there isn't much hope left in me, my suicidal thoughts are back, I don't know how much I could handle this depression anymore, I just wanna feel loved, feel happy, feel protected, feel not alone, but I look around, not much happiness than the darkness that's swallowing me whole, I could go to insanity, I fought back once, but it's back again, i try, but there's nothing to find, i fight, but it just keeps backfiring, i try to find help, but I failed, I just feel empty, I can't smile, I can't even look at myself with a bright smile, my head always feels empty, I feel distant from reality. For about 7 years, I have been fighting depression, for about 7 years I have been turning horrible like her, for 7 years I wanted to live, and now, I don't know.... I'm healthy, not so pretty, very kind,and very fragile.... I guess that's why I'm like this, I'm very fragile, oh well, there's nothing I can do since I'm trapped here, I have the intentions to kill HER, but I won't, I know it's wrong to kill, anyways, good night ❤️