I know I should start posting stuff like this on my other account, but ah, I guess this is kind of like my comfort account of sorts, like a safe place.
Plus, I had only meant to talk about Yuri!!! On Ice on there, except I can slowly feel my interest in it dwindling, which is kind of scary, I'm not gonna lie.
Like, for anyone with autism or ADHD, or just with extreme interests in things, I wonder if any of you guys have had the same problem. You've had such a strong interest in this thing, and you can't imagine losing interest in it anytime soon, until you can feel this passion being slowly ripped away from you, bit by bit. It's heartbreaking, personally, because there are a lot of things that I still haven't experienced in regards to YOI, and I literally went so far as to make a book on my other account--something that I've been hesitant about for years--talking about this thing that I love so much, only to find it harder and harder to write these analyses. I mean, I should've expected it, I suppose, as this isn't the first time my Special Interest has dwindled (it happened with VeggieTales), but still, it's hard. Obviously I still have some interest in it, seeing as I'm so disgruntled by this prospect, but I was the same way with VeggieTales, until I just... didn't care.
The feeling is almost like having a limb torn from your body, you know? Or a part of your soul, even, and you're just left partially empty until something else comes to fill it again.
I don't know, maybe that's just me being melodramatic lol
I don't even know why I'm talking about this here, it's probably a little weird to read about, haha (I mean, if any of you even care. I get it if you don't, it's kind of a personal thing...)