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 #MiniLaddIsOverParty

I was looking through your reading list for good books and I saw both BBS ships and Scömíche you are my soulmate❤ 

Where do I put my sugarbaby application?

Honestly, all my group chats are really dead right now and I just wanna talk with some homies. I got a new mic for Christmas and I want to test it out but everyone's busy or barely talking right now, so if anyone wants to hang out with me while I'm on break, I'll legit just hand out my Skype or Discord 'cause I'm that bored and crave human interaction. Don't be shy 'cause I'm only confident over text and a big awkward weirdo in real life. Forcefully enter my DMs and demand my usernames, I really don't care at this point.

It's hard not to think about how I kissed your fuzzy little head goodbye. Even as you were struggling—could barely move without hurting—you rested it in my hand every night. I still miss the way you'd throw a fit when you couldn't have something, click happily at the edge of the cage because I was on the floor, wrap yourself in my hair just to be in my hair, slip on my shoulder because you were just too fat but loved to be a part of the adventure, become so good when we went in the car or for a walk just so we wouldn't get mad and leave you home, snuggle in your favorite spot in between my legs, or bug your eyes out when I pet you just right. I can't listen to your favorite song anymore, the one you'd make happy noises and instantly calm and cuddle when you heard it, because I know you aren't here anymore. You were so smart, looking up at me and copying what I'd do, recognizing us through a screen just from our face or voice. Sometimes, I still feel your weight against me, leaning for affection like the lap dog you were, and I like to think it's you wanting one last nap, but you don't understand you're already sleeping. I'll never forget the last thing I said before they took you to the back.
          
          
          
          You're my good boy; you'll always be my good boy. 
          
          
          
          Rest easy, Gus. Please.

Guys, I'm so sorry for being inactive. Every time I go to write, it's not on what it should be, and I'm really trying to finish something—anything. 
          
          It's been a month and didn't wanna seem dramatic and post about it, but I had to put down Gus-Gus because his tumor got infected and he was in constant pain. It was either that or a life-risking surgery, and we had to be fast because it was hurting us to see him not even get up for food. Randomly, I'll just break down crying because it's hard not to think about him, even with my new rat. 
          
          I'm not sure a lot of you know this, but I'm not very close with my immediate family (only with my cousin who lives in a different state and my little brother who doesn't understand), all of my close friends either live too far away and are very busy or only talk to me when it's convenient (or hurt me because they don't really care even though we've known each other for six years), my new friends only get obsessed with me for maybe a month or a few weeks and slowly start to turn away, and I'm not very appealing to date, so the only person who I could seek comfort from when nobody would respond was my rat. Perks of being annoying, I guess. He was always there when nobody else was, so I made a promise to be there for him and comfort him on his final days. I didn't really have anyone to help me grieve and get over him, since he would usually be that person for me, so I'm a little broken, but it's fine, what can ya do? He'll always be my good boy </3
          
          I get reminded how alone I am all the time and hate whining about it because I don't wanna be THAT guy. The good news is that this new rat baby is gonna be my best fucking friend now and I'm gonna give him the life that Gus-Gus deserved.
          
          Anyway, I'm on break now, which means seasonal depression, I get super high with my rats, nobody gave me their contacts during school because nobody wants to hang out, everyone else is busy, and I'm gonna be writing as much as I want.

For those of you who unsubscribed from Mini Ladd a few years ago when the change started showing, I'm envious, but I grieved and was in denial and hoped he would come back instead. This new activity of his, however, doesn't surprise me, and now I join my more mature friends who could let him go during that 2017–2018 era. Despite this—wow, why the fuck do I sound like I'm writing an argumentative essay—I'm still going to be writing WildLadd stories, but all of my stories have always been based on this mentality of 2014–2016 personalities and twisted in my imagination, so whenever I write, it's outside of change and reality (even though they have a realistic feel in some?) because I have a hard time letting go of things. Also, I like what I have going on in my brain? I mean, it's not like they're dating in real life, so why stop when reality changes if it never was what you were writing, y'know? I'm also just nervous to do anything for other fandoms since this is my bitch. 
          
          Side Note: I'm in the process of writing something very big, and I'm hoping I can get it done soon since school's starting up!

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!
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My girlfriend harassed me into completing a different one-shot because we realized it's not going to be done before the year ends, but we don't know what one I'm gonna do. I keep saying yes and no and changing my mind about what I'm working on even with your guys' input and it's really confusing. I think I'm gonna start a CaRtirious one-shot in time for Kinktober—we're gonna pray it stays that way. I haven't really dabbled with those two too much so I hope I'm not too awful with portraying them. I also haven't seen any Omegaverse stuff of them, but that's probably what I'm gonna do, and let's hope I keep it simple and not write a novel again.

Okay, so I know I have a million WildLadd stories being written, but something inside me is tempted to do something else as well? Since Craig kind of went to shit, I had to pick a new main to watch, and I've been getting into TerrorSnuckel because I'm obsessed with Brian and, I swear to God, they're the best old couple ever and I may be up to writing them. I've also been obsessed with CaRtirious for ages and wouldn't mind writing about them either. This doesn't mean I'm done with WildLadd—I love it too much to be healthy—and I have so much more of them to finish. 
          
          Oh, yeah, I guess I should be doing updates of Spoiled? (Probably gonna start doing it on an Insta so it doesn't get annoying) Basically, it's an WildLadd Omegaverse one-shot that's probably gonna fall into 100,000+ words if I don't stop adding to it. I'm around 7,200, the last time I checked. I decided to work on that before I complete anything else. Into The Forest has so much planned for the future and not the beginning, so this gives me time. (I'm sorry for not working on the original 300+ follower smut-shot, this'll probably be a replacement?) Also, at some point down the line, I'd really like to make a story that people can vote on what happens next or what should be implemented in it. I like challenges. Um, sorry for the ping. Thanks for listening to my Ted Talk.