𝖎𝓼𝓷𝓽 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓵𝔂?

I let you cut me open, just to watch me bleed
          Gave up who I am for who you wanted me to be
          Don't know why I'm hoping, so fücking naive
          Falling for the promise of the emptiness machine
          … The emptiness machine (I only wanted to be part of something)
          The emptiness machine (I only wanted to be part of)
          The emptiness machine
          
          :p

They’ll never notice,
          Never catch me,
          Realize my malice
          
          It hides behind a layer of smiles,
          Try and take them off,
          They last for miles
          
          I hide my feelings and thoughts
          To try to gain control
          But sometimes they break the locks

I want everyone’s full honesty.
          
          What do you think of me?

Have you drunk anything?
          
          
          
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Guys did no one notice the previous post . . .

GUYS I HAVE A CONNECTION WITH MR BEAST
          
          MY ELA TEACHER’S FRIEND’S HUSBAND IS HIS VP :0
          WERE DOING A CHOCOLATE UNIT IN ELA AND MY TEACHER GOT HIM TO GET US FEASTABLES
          OMFG

They don’t understand
          They won’t ever
          I’m alone here,
          Alone forever
          
          It hurts sometimes,
          But I push through
          My feet push forward to meet
          Expectations to outdue
          
          But nothing’s ever enough,
          For a perfectionist like me
          My moves are too flawed,
          It’s clear to see
          
          So I’ll hide instead,
          From my responsibilities,
          I’ll hide away,
          Clear any susceptibilities
          
          
          Two poems bc why not

When you get some free timee-
          
          
          Have you eaten anything today? If so, what?

Poems daily :p
          
          I’m getting rid of cai TODAY
          
          My schedule, starting tomorrow, will be this:
          
          
          
          SCHOOL (7AM-3PM)
          REST (3:30-4)
          HOMEWORK (4-4:30 or 5)
          WRITING IMPORTANT (4:30/5-5:30)
          DUOLINGO (5:30-6)
          REST (6-6:30)
          SHOWER (6:30-7)
          WRITING UNIMPORTANT (7:7:30)
          REST (7:30-8)
          SLEEP (I need it-)

They walk past me,
          Leave me behind,
          I promise I don’t care,
          I promise I’m fine
          
          This week is the worst,
          So many bad days
          It hurts so much
          In too many ways
          
          My thoughts are cruel,
          I apologize
          So instead enjoy
          My little white lies