TheGnossienne

When I was 12 or 13 years old I started writing just for fun. It all started with a page on Instagram where I would publish love stories in German. I would write my story in German but have Turkish main characters with Turkish names . There were many pages like this, too. The best part was, that I would just go for it and write without overthinking. The story line wasn't planned, I just sat there and let my imagination do its work. My page didn't make it big, like, I didn't have thousands of followers, but the ones I got were enough. When I think back to it, I was so much happier with writing stories and getting so much support from my readers. But I don't know what happened then. Writer's block, I couldn't write a single word on the blank page. At first I knew what I wanted to write, I knew where I wanted to lead my story, but no word came out.
          	So I decided to stop and take a break. Suddenly this break was 2 years long. I also had a hard time in my private life. Bullying in school and anxiety. I was overthinking too much, I hated myself even more day by day, I was insecure.
          	But I realized, nothing made me happier than writing. My creativity is my best strength.

TheGnossienne

 I'm trying to write again, to be able to write a chapter a day like I used to back then with 13. It's hard, though, it's so hard. I don't know whether it's because of the overthinking or because I don't find the time to write because of school. Maybe I just don't take the time?
          	  My thoughts are telling me that I won't be able to write a full story again, that I have no talent and it's no use anyways. But at the same time I know it's not true? I am so confused. Why does this negativity always win?
          	  When I remember all the positive feedback I got from my readers back then, I get this feeling of having found "the right way". Maybe I was meant to write? Maybe this is my way? Or my destiny? Of course I still have to improve and maybe I should better stick to German at first since I'm more comfortable with this language. But one thing I know for sure is, that I shouldn't give up writing. I want to put the stories in my head out into this world for others to see. Maybe even change the world with my stories?
          	  I will try it again. Even if I have to start over again many times.
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TheGnossienne

When I was 12 or 13 years old I started writing just for fun. It all started with a page on Instagram where I would publish love stories in German. I would write my story in German but have Turkish main characters with Turkish names . There were many pages like this, too. The best part was, that I would just go for it and write without overthinking. The story line wasn't planned, I just sat there and let my imagination do its work. My page didn't make it big, like, I didn't have thousands of followers, but the ones I got were enough. When I think back to it, I was so much happier with writing stories and getting so much support from my readers. But I don't know what happened then. Writer's block, I couldn't write a single word on the blank page. At first I knew what I wanted to write, I knew where I wanted to lead my story, but no word came out.
          So I decided to stop and take a break. Suddenly this break was 2 years long. I also had a hard time in my private life. Bullying in school and anxiety. I was overthinking too much, I hated myself even more day by day, I was insecure.
          But I realized, nothing made me happier than writing. My creativity is my best strength.

TheGnossienne

 I'm trying to write again, to be able to write a chapter a day like I used to back then with 13. It's hard, though, it's so hard. I don't know whether it's because of the overthinking or because I don't find the time to write because of school. Maybe I just don't take the time?
            My thoughts are telling me that I won't be able to write a full story again, that I have no talent and it's no use anyways. But at the same time I know it's not true? I am so confused. Why does this negativity always win?
            When I remember all the positive feedback I got from my readers back then, I get this feeling of having found "the right way". Maybe I was meant to write? Maybe this is my way? Or my destiny? Of course I still have to improve and maybe I should better stick to German at first since I'm more comfortable with this language. But one thing I know for sure is, that I shouldn't give up writing. I want to put the stories in my head out into this world for others to see. Maybe even change the world with my stories?
            I will try it again. Even if I have to start over again many times.
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