Feeling hopeless is something I'm used to.
But I feel like I'm getting to the deepest point of this feeling,
I'm turning blue more than ever,
Getting hopeless over and over,
till I hit the bottom and then
I stop eating,
Quit moving,
Hate breathing,
The inability of everything is taking over me
Diseases are all around me
and they won't leave
Disorders are more like my real family
cuz they love me as hell
how can I move?
if I was tied up by everything
I'm searching for a little will
To keep me alive for some reason.
This is the hardest thing I would ever do.
Heaven only knows how far I can continue.
