I hate life right now. It seems like everything is falling a part, and death is the only sanctuary. It calls out to me louder now than ever before; I am slowly drifting towards uncontrollably. I am week and cannot break free these chains that drag me relentlessly. Crying tears of blood, fearing sleeps and the nightmares of loneliness that await me there, I force myself to remain awake. Slowly I drift not only to death but further down the river of insanity. Tell me what am I supposed to do when the one I love unconditionally, the one who claimed to feel the same, falls in love with another but tugs you along with a slim hope of being together again? No matter what I do I cannot rid her from my thoughts, no matter how hard I fight I cannot banish her from my heart. No matter what I say I cannot stop loving her. What can I do but die a slow miserable death or take the quick way out?
