TheHighTygress

I don't know if anyone cares where I've been or why, but in case someone does, I'll write this.
          	
          	It's been a couple of years fighting with some misunderstandings and misdiagnoses. Information I never had that made life harder to understand when I was younger. I left because I was under the impression that this was childish. I thought that my writing was immature and not worth pursuing, despite how happy it made me. I enjoyed commenting and developing twists and (trying to) showcasing emotional turmoil and vulnerability. I was so used to denying myself the things I liked for fear of being judged as unacceptable, unlovable or unworthy, I was willing to throw away my only real joy. 
          	Since then, I've withered. I didn't watch movies, shows or even read. I worked and scrolled, which is a shitty ass existence. I had relegated myself to a life I wanted so badly to avoid all because of my fear of being seen and understood. Until recently, for me to be known was to be hated, ridiculed or ignored. The love and appreciation I got from my time on this app was probably the most I had ever gotten. It took me a couple of years to realize what I had been doing to myself. The parts of my soul I had chopped off to receive the acceptance of people who never cared and never would care. 
          	I truly didn't think I'd be back, but here I am. I'm back in all of my cringey, cliche glory, learning to accept myself again. I don't know if anyone who used to follow will read this, but if so, I just wanted you to know your presence helped me a lot during a time I didn't know myself. Your comments, votes and reads were pieces of evidence I used to remind myself I mattered and had an impact on the world outside of myself. It was fuel that helped propel me to a life and future I so desperately wanted. I want to thank you. You've helped me far more than you could ever know. 
          	
          	If you're new, Hi. Welcome. I hope my stories are enjoyable for you. <3

TheHighTygress

@donnaclair I just want you to know that I genuinely appreciate your comment! Its feedback and knowing my work has some type of impact on people(hopefully positive) that keeps me going. I hope to keep giving you great stories to make the outside world a little less loud.
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donnaclair

@TheHighTygress personally your story is one of the best I've read in a while. I reread it when my head is to messy and the noise around me is to loud. It's fictional but creative and it's a get away for some people that need it. I just wanted to express my appreciation for it.
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TheHighTygress

I don't know if anyone cares where I've been or why, but in case someone does, I'll write this.
          
          It's been a couple of years fighting with some misunderstandings and misdiagnoses. Information I never had that made life harder to understand when I was younger. I left because I was under the impression that this was childish. I thought that my writing was immature and not worth pursuing, despite how happy it made me. I enjoyed commenting and developing twists and (trying to) showcasing emotional turmoil and vulnerability. I was so used to denying myself the things I liked for fear of being judged as unacceptable, unlovable or unworthy, I was willing to throw away my only real joy. 
          Since then, I've withered. I didn't watch movies, shows or even read. I worked and scrolled, which is a shitty ass existence. I had relegated myself to a life I wanted so badly to avoid all because of my fear of being seen and understood. Until recently, for me to be known was to be hated, ridiculed or ignored. The love and appreciation I got from my time on this app was probably the most I had ever gotten. It took me a couple of years to realize what I had been doing to myself. The parts of my soul I had chopped off to receive the acceptance of people who never cared and never would care. 
          I truly didn't think I'd be back, but here I am. I'm back in all of my cringey, cliche glory, learning to accept myself again. I don't know if anyone who used to follow will read this, but if so, I just wanted you to know your presence helped me a lot during a time I didn't know myself. Your comments, votes and reads were pieces of evidence I used to remind myself I mattered and had an impact on the world outside of myself. It was fuel that helped propel me to a life and future I so desperately wanted. I want to thank you. You've helped me far more than you could ever know. 
          
          If you're new, Hi. Welcome. I hope my stories are enjoyable for you. <3

TheHighTygress

@donnaclair I just want you to know that I genuinely appreciate your comment! Its feedback and knowing my work has some type of impact on people(hopefully positive) that keeps me going. I hope to keep giving you great stories to make the outside world a little less loud.
• Reply

donnaclair

@TheHighTygress personally your story is one of the best I've read in a while. I reread it when my head is to messy and the noise around me is to loud. It's fictional but creative and it's a get away for some people that need it. I just wanted to express my appreciation for it.
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