TheHumbledPenman

"Sometimes it helps to view the world with a bated breath and a mind wide enough to find the meaning behind it all."

Hello to everyone. 
          
          Firstly, I'd like to apologize for nit being in wattpad, but I've been struggling to log back into wattpad after a possible password crack in my account happened, but it's been resolved.
          
          I would also like to let you all know, I will be working on a new short story. It's Titled "Deo Valor" which is latin for "God's Value".
          
          It's going to be a story on the lines of an archeological fantasy. So far as I have the story plotted out, it will follow the main character Damien as he has to retrieve stolen archaeological relics found by a company he works for. 
          
          I expect to finish chapter 1 in a week or 2 for now. 
          
          I am a bit out of practice so my momentum may be a bit slow, but I do hope that it would be worth the wait.
          
          

It's funny to me, how I always wrote daily when younger, like I was trying to escape everything, only to lose that side of my dedication. I still write, but I hardly do even a 10th of the amount I used to.

@Scara_Blackheart
          
          *Gives a blanket and papers* Lets cover the world in confetti

Okay, so about my earlier Post with regards to the Aphantasia.
          
          Let me explain it like this.
          
          On a scale of 1 to 10, how would you describe yourself visualizing, say an apple or a place even. Would you say you can do it flawlessly? Then you're around 8 to 10.
          
          Only barely able to see it in your mind, not as detailed but still able to clearly call it what it is? 4 to 7.
          
          
          Barely like a doodle image, say 1 to 3.
          
          Then there are those who can't at all. 0.  That is basically where I sit. I can't visualize it at all. I know what it should be, but its like staring at nothing but darkness, a blank page. I can describe how I'd like it to look, but wont be able to see it. Thus I use visually descriptive words to bring the image together and build it in segments.
          
          Appearantly this is nit the norm as most people can conjure the image generally and should be able to do so without having to build it slowly. 
          
          
          This makes it interesting to me, because that means I should struggle to recall stuff on command which is the case but I always thought of it as a bad memory of sorts. But for instance, if I were to physically describe the thing, I would be able to build the picture.  This means that if I can by chance recall the way of doing something previously, I can recreate the object I desire. 
          
          
          I know there might be people out there who, they themselves don't know they have Aphantasia, who might feel like I did, so yeah. Don't think you're alone. It's not a bad memory you got. Its just simply put, that the display in your head is off, so you gotta sketch it out manually to have the picture. 

So I just learnt recently that I dont have a similar mind to many out there. I thought it was common place to not truly see an image in one's mind, but appearantly that's not the case.  I can describe them, but not see them, which means I have no pictures in my head really. Basically, it is called Aphantasia. As far back as I can recall, I could never visualize any image so when I drew, I drew by describing what I wanted to see basically. This led me to learn more descriptive words. I'm gonna cover this soon more later

So yeah...
          
          I am gonna be moody and grumpy for the next week. Enjoys. 

Started a new thing. Feel free to criticise

I panicked earlier today because the  blowing up of my comments today. Mini nervous chuckles

Hi guys and galls. Please be aware that I shall be mourning again as someone else in my life passed away. I thank you all for the support in future as well as the patience even though I post odd times.