TheJediKnight04

Hey, guys.
          
          No, I'm not ending this account.
          
          I'm going to be vulnerable and catch you up on what's happened in the past year.
          
          Tea and Croissants:
          
          1. On March 30th, 2026, I was sexually harassed by an older homeless man at my university. He called me pretty and insisted that he come home with me, even after I said no and said I had my boyfriend at the time instead. That traumatized me and flung me into a deep state of anxiety, depression, and honestly, made me suicidal. I almost didn't finish college because I was too scared to go outside and had panic attack after panic attack. This led me to rely heavily on my boyfriend for comfort and support. Which leads me to my next point. 
          
          2. On August 23rd, 2026, after 15 months of dating, my ex gave me a blindsided breakup since he wanted kids and I didn't. Now that I look back at it, I know we're not compatible and there were plenty of red flags (always late to dates, forgetful, didn't tell me there would be chances he'd be late, had me waiting over an hour once for a date, made me cry on my BIRTHDAY). But I told him I didn't want kids at the 6 month benchmark, and he said he would choose me no matter what. OBVIOUSLY THAT WAS A FUCKING LIE.
          
          To make it worse, when I had the epiphany that I did want kids (which I now realize was just me trying to get him back), he had the gall to now say "Oh, my architecture program is getting crazy, I don't have time for a relationship but couples who break up can get back together and there's a 10% chance we will but treat this like a real break up and move on and don't rely on that chance."
          
          So, I blocked him. On everything. In hopes he realizes he fucked up, comes back, and chooses me out of something like The Notebook but mainly, to heal and be okay.
          
          Anyways, thanks for listening. I am still going to be active, but don't worry when there's a gap between uploads. I'm just going through some major shit right now. Thank you so, so much for all your support. You guys are the best. :)

Ya'll, I'm gonna be real with you. 
          
          I just went through my second breakup (ex was a shitty dude who promised to always work things out with me but the second things got hard in college and some incompatibility came up, he bitched out instead of talking it through), so I'm probably gonna be more productive on here to fill up that time and heal. 
          
          I'm honestly really depressed because this was someone I was planning to marry and shared very intimate moments with. But like Makwa, I'm gonna have courage and keep fighting. 
          
          I'm bisexual, so at least I have double the options for dating when I'm ready (planning to date a woman instead but GODDAMIT MEN ARE SO ATTRACTIVE, but so stupid sometimes). 
          
          Wanted to let you all know. Thanks for listening.

Ya'll, I just had my birthday last weeeeeeek!
          
          Sorry that uploads have been so inconsistent lately, I'm attempting to graduate from college and keep my mental health and relationship afloat at the same time. 
          
          I promise I'll get more back into writing once I go home for the summer. 
          
          Love ya'll!

Guys, I'm going to be real with you. 
          
          I've considered it for a few months now, and with everything going on with graduating college, an ever-increasing workload, devoting time to my relationship with my partner, and trying to move out and find a job, I can't do it anymore. 
          
          I think I'm going to do a permanent hiatus on writing my books. I want to thank you all for the support and love over the past couple of years, and I hope that maybe one day, I'll come back and finish my stories. 
          
          I love you guys. :)
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Heh. April Fool's. 
          
          Working on new chapters of The Running Bear and Descent Into Mystery.

Me after finally finishing summer school and camping and getting ready to write again: I can finally leave! Martha, I'm coming home-
          
          Me being sick for the majority of the summer and getting COVID again yesterday: I'M BACK IN THE FUACKING BUILDING AGAIN
          
          So, I was planning on writing more of chapter 29 of The Running Bear and publishing it by next month, but I've been sick with a viral infection and COVID the majority of the summer. 
          
          I would definitely survive A Nightmare on Elm Street with the way I didn't get any sleep last night. 
          
          Anyways, just wanted to let you guys know what's been going on. Don't worry, I'm not dead and I'm not retiring from this anytime soon. I've just been really sick this summer and it's taken a toll on me. 
          
          See you guys in the next chapter!

YA'LL LISTEN UP I HAVE A REALLY AWESOME ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!
          
          I FINALLY HAVE AN INSTAGRAM PAGE JUST FOR MY WATTPAD ACCOUNT AND I HAVE MY FIRST TWO POSTS ON THERE NOW. 
          
          A NEVER BEFORE SEEN FANART OF CAT NOIR AND MAKWA.
          AND A "THE RUNNING BEAR AS VINES" VIDEO THAT I'VE BEEN WORKING ON FOR MONTHS. 
          
          THE LINK IS ON MY ABOUT PAGE ON MY WATTPAD PAGE BUT I'M LITERALLY SO EXCITED TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU GUYS THIS IS SUCH A HUGE STEP FOR ME. 
          
          I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THE STUPID, FUNNY STUFF I POST. HEH.

Soooooooooo, my birthday was yesterday (5/26). 
          
          I completely forgot to write anything about it, and I'm so sorry for that. :(
          
          I really wanted to post the next chapter of The Running Bear for that, but college has been kicking my ass. I got two projects to do for two different classes and skeletal remains to analyze every week. 
          
          BUT, I am working my little butt off to get it out to you guys soon. With a little something extra on the side. Consider it my belated birthday gift to you guys. 
          
          See you guys later! Stay hydrated! Tis getting hot out here.

ya'll, my Wattpad account has been acting up for the past week now, so I'm SO SORRY for the delay in updates. 
          
          It keeps on saying drafts are published when they're not and whatnot, so it's really annoying. If ya'll get a notification that a draft is published, it's probably not the full chapter. Sorry.

Ya'll, I got a few announcements, so please listen up. 
          
          First off, Happy International Women's Day! 
          
          Speaking as a Native American woman, it means the world to me to be able to write what I love on here, and I am so happy to provide characters for other members of the Indigenous community to relate to. 
          
          Second, I was re-writing the script for this next chapter of The Running Bear when I realized something. 
          
          We're almost to the end of the book. 
          
          I know, I know! It's sad that this book is almost coming to an end after almost five years. I feel really sad about it too. I've loved developing Makwa as a character and making you guys laugh with the dumb references I add in my books. 
          
          BUT ANYWAY, I hope you guys are taking care of yourself. I know things right now are, *ahem* crazy. I live in America, so it's a lot over here right now. 
          
          See you guys in the next chapter!

Hey, just wanted to say, I love your book, the running bear. You inspire me as a writer myself :)